Let Go and Let God...

A couple weeks ago, I downloaded the Mormon dating app known as "Mutual". 

I know what you're thinking. I'm thinking the exact same thing. I've been against it for quite some time, and didn't want to admit that it would be able to do anything for me, or that I would get anything out of it. Regardless, I decided to try it. 

Update: After two weeks, I deleted it. Nothing much happened, but I did have a rather intriguing conversation with one guy I matched with. Luckily it has been something I have already been thinking quite a bit about, so it just added to the conversation. I talked quite a bit about where I've come from, and why I believe some of the things I believe. It was honestly a rather intriguing conversation. He is a convert to the church, and I was actually surprised I was able to open up so much and tell him what I told him. 

The next day, he stopped talking to me. Shocker. I was sitting in church, feeling sad. Alone. Upset. About what, I'm not exactly sure. It had nothing to do with that guy. I simply just felt lost. I was ready to spend the rest of the day in that state of being. 

Almost at once, in that sacrament meeting, a phrase popped into my head. "I am the Gardener here. I know what I want you to be." It was then that I realized that God heard the silent pleadings of my heart, and reminded me that he had never left me. He was there all along. 

I went home and found the talks that quote the story of the currant bush, which is an incredible talk I would highly recommend to anyone struggling or going through a hard time. 

It was such a beautiful talk, and also extremely pertinent to my life and situations as of late. 

I have to admit I've been pretty focused on dating, and what could go wrong. I've had many so-called adventures in the land of love. Not every situation has been full of sunshine. Not every situation has been the happy-go-lucky experience I'd always imagined it could be. But recently, I learned a lesson I find to be pretty important, and that is to just GIVE UP. 

Now, I'm not a quitter. But I'm also not talking about giving up in the sense that everyone might think. I'm talking about giving up my selfish desires, and replacing them with the LOVE God has for us. For me. I started to recognize that His desires for me are more important than my selfish desires for myself. 

I tell myself often that I'm just going to "Let Go, and give it all to God." It's just that easy, right? 

As Jim Carey says, "WRONGO." 

I can't count the number of times I've wrestled with this. I've been so happy for others in their situations. But in the process I began to realize that I'd lost myself in the midst of being happy for everyone else. 

But that changed after reading the talk about the little currant bush. 

I took a step back, and really started to pay attention to myself and how God feels about me. I began to see a shift in my attitude. I discovered I'm happy in my own shoes. 

It's amazing what can happen when you let GO and let GOD take control. I have started to see things I haven't seen in myself before in some pretty big ways. It really is important to TRUST GOD and TRUST the process. 

We have so many plans and goals and desires for our lives, but it really is up to the TRUST we have for our Heavenly Father to help guide us. He can offer us more than we could ever imagine for ourselves. All we can do is learn to trust that his plan is greater than ours ever could be. It's all about the process. 

Let Go and Let God take control. 

https://www.lds.org/media-library/video/2012-01-014-the-will-of-god?lang=eng